I haven't posted for a while. wow. Life has been hectic lately.



Ive been thinking. I know thats scary, but hear me out.



Basically i think alot of girls feel the way I do. You know when i was younger, a few years ago, i could never see this coming. I could never see liking guys so much in fact one guy in particular. It feels normal but weird. My CHS friends can vouch for this. I hated guys. I thought they were the rudest people ever, but now, i can't stay away. sad. anyway what i was trying to say was that you never think when you are younger how your life will actually tuen out, only an aproximated guess. wow. I really surprise myself sometimes. ok so basically i never thought i would be that girl who stresses if her hair isnt perfect, or worries what a guy will think. but i do. and its weird. i never thought i would go through that phase that "im not pretty enough phase" but i have and im in it right now. Its like i had an out of body experice though. I can feel myself changing and its really freaky. Like I always thought i would be so close with my parents. but i feel myself pushing away. things i dont feel comfortable telling them. Things I want to do on my own, with my friends. I can feel change. and i think its good. I am accepting the change and its moving fast. Im not a little girl anymore. and i like it.